Reflection of self
Over the past couple weeks as I have been going in and out of smaller episodes and trying to learn how to deal with the meds and the cycles. One of the things that I have reading about is how we view ourselves. One of the things that I have learned over the past 12 years of knowlingly having this disorder. My view of myself has gone down hill. I have viewed myself as sick and not capable of doing anything right. I have viewed myself as disabled and not being to fulfill my roles in society or what I would like to accomplish as person. I have felt like a failure and like my life is about to get worse and there is nothing I can do to stop it from happening. That the disorder was going to eat me alive and that it was going to ruin my life as a whole. Then I started to take control and try to learn how to live with the disorder and not make the disorder my whole focal point. ...